This morning I became acquainted with a new friend, from reading her most recent Blog post –http://networkedblogs.com/
I was born the oldest child of two loving parents; and the first grandchild for both sides of the family. As such, everything I did attracted attention, and I felt loved and protected. When I was 5 years old, my parents went their separate ways, and I became the leader of my Mom’s 4 oldest children. I was bold, outspoken, direct, unafraid, mischievous, fun-loving, and smart; and still felt loved and protected. Protected enough to venture into new challenges that tended to amaze those around me.
When I was 11, my whole world changed; and this morning I finally realized the extent of it… The visibility that I used to be comfortable with as a child, made me vulnerable to attack. Over the course of the next 7 years, I developed methods of protecting myself by becoming invisible. I’d hide in the corner with a book, or walked for miles to get away from home, or cut-off contact with friends to avoid explaining what was happening in my family. Instead of being the open, happy person I had been, I became the “protector” of my younger siblings and put up walls to prevent new people from getting close to me.
Of course I recognized years ago that as a child from a “dysfunctional” home I had been affected by the environment I grew up in: I have been dealing with relationship and family issues all of my adult life. However, I had not realized how much I am still protecting myself from being vulnerable to “attack” by trying to stay “invisible”. I can’t do what God has called me to do by staying “invisible”; not allowing those who need my help to find me. I can’t make life decisions based on whether I’m able to “blend in” with the crowd; when I need to soar like an eagle and live life Abundantly. By becoming more visible, I will be attacked; just as I have been in the past. I must learn to accept the feedback that is helpful, ignore that which is destructive, do what is best for me, and connect with those that are comfortable with that.
I friend of mine created this mantra for me: (Thank You Thor Saleswarlord; https://www.facebook.com/saleswarlord)
- Their rules no longer apply to you
- You are on a harley; You are free
- You are a Warrior Maiden; A leather clad rider of awesomeness
- You fear nothing
- You belong in the mountains with the wind in your hair; Like an eagle
- Not scared in the dark like a weasel
- You can do ANYTHING you choose; Because that’s what makes you different
- Most accountants are stuffy, boring dickheads
- You are a warrior, artist, poet, healer, spirit leader
This morning’s breakthrough has been many years in coming: I thank God for the revelation that is positioning me for the next step. 🙂
Please let me know if this message resonates with you as well..
Leave A Reply (26 comments so far)
Christiane
11 years ago
I love your story, because it shows that it is possible to change and let go of limiting habits, attitudes and beliefs learned in childhood. It takes time and determination, but we don’t have to accept as adults how our upbringing has conditioned us, especially when it’s holding us back from fulfilling our true and enormous potential. Thank you for sharing!
PeggyLusk
11 years ago
Thank you so much for your response, Christiane. I am a big believer that we do have control over what we become in life: That it’s a journey for all of us, that is longer for some. Even though I recognized in early adulthood that my behavior was holding me back; finding the source was so therapeutic for me. It really has made a world of difference in how I approach a lot of things in my everyday life.
Lisa MacDonald
12 years ago
Wow, what a great story. I can really relate to the trying to be invisible, but it was more because I grew up as an only child and spent a lot of time alone, so being invisible or blending in was/is my comfort zone. I didn’t think of it as it being a way of trying to protect myself… but that does explain it. I am a work in progress, LOL.
PeggyLusk
12 years ago
Hi Lisa.. Thank you for connecting with me and telling me your story. I can definitely identify with your feelings of being a work in progress – And; I’m really OK with that thought. I believe that learning and growing is what keeps me alive and healthy. I bet you feel that too.. 🙂
Lorii Abela
12 years ago
Hi Peggy,
I really love your post and I could say that was really an awesome breakthrough. Thanks for sharing your story.
PeggyLusk
12 years ago
Hi Lorii.. Thank you for getting to know me a little better.
Lena
12 years ago
Thanks for sharing, I also can relate to your experience and this was kind of an awakening for me too!
Lena
PeggyLusk
12 years ago
Thank you so much for connecting with me, Lena. Has your awakening also been as a result of the relationships being built within PJ VanHulle’s community? There are some really amazing people in this group..
Kama
12 years ago
Very helpful words, Thank you. I can relate to the invisible comments. I often say I am wearing my invisibility cloak and I consciously take it off in my mind before I go out. I have noticed that when I am in that frame of mind people really don’t notice me. So it is good to have a mantra or a tool to use when this mood arises.
PeggyLusk
12 years ago
Thank you so much for connecting with me further, Kama… I look forward to reading the rest of your series: I know that it will resonate with me.. 🙂
D. Takara Shelor
12 years ago
Wow, what a great post. Isn’t it so true that our stories define who we are, and the painful bits that we overcome are why we are so awesome. This is a great revelation and I salute your courage to not only be visible once again, but to be vulnerable enough to share your story. Great job!
D. Takara Shelor
Author of Peering Through the Veil
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PeggyLusk
12 years ago
Thank you so much for connecting with me, Takara; and for you helpful words of encouragement… I look forward to getting to know you better.. 🙂
Cherie Lawrence
12 years ago
Thank you for sharing your past experiences and your breakthrough. I can totally relate with the awakening and the crumbling of the OLD. I experienced two wonderful shifts in my perception yesterday morning, realizing that I was the only thing creating my reality the way I’ve been experiencing it. I am so thankful as well. What else is possible for us? I wonder what it would take for us to shift all that not longer serves us, effortlessly and faster than we thought possible?
http://www.RealYouNow.com
PeggyLusk
12 years ago
Thank you so much for connecting with me, Cherie… I’m so glad that you too are experiencing amazing growth.. And the more we grow; the more we KNOW is possible.. 🙂
Amanda Maynard
12 years ago
I can sooo relate. Thank you for sharing your awakening. I have been working through that one myself for a while.
Hugs,
Amanda Maynard
Inner Guidance Coach/Spiritual Mentor
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PeggyLusk
12 years ago
Thank you so much for connecting with me, Amanda… It was so nice of you to share your sentiments that I am not alone… I was amazed at how a chance remark caused everything to fall into place: It was as though a door had been opened. I hope that it will happen for you that way too.. 🙂
Lisa Braithwaite
12 years ago
Thanks for sharing your story, Peggy. What an awesome breakthrough and change in perspective.
LB
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Lisa Braithwaite, Public Speaking Coach and Trainer
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PeggyLusk
12 years ago
Thank you so much for connecting with me, Lisa… Yes, this was an awesome breakthrough for me: One that I had been struggling with for quite some time. This was a really big side benefit to being part of PJ’s program and connecting with others in her community…
Janelle
12 years ago
Powerful! Fear can paralyze us and stop us from doing what our soul calls us to do. I find it beautiful that you have been able to connect with a deeper part of you that allows you to break free.
Honoring you,
Janelle
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PeggyLusk
12 years ago
Thank you so much for connecting with me, Janelle…. For me, it wasn’t enough to recognize that I had the fear; I also needed to understand it to release it. It was such an amazing experience; and a side benefit to PJ’s program..
Andrea Stenberg
12 years ago
Too often we are unaware of how events and experiences from our past are affecting our present. Thank you for sharing your personal story and inspiring us to remember that we can make a change.
PeggyLusk
12 years ago
Thank you so much for connecting with me, Andrea… I was amazed at how the answer to a question I’d been struggling with for such a long time just magically appeared… For me, this is probably the biggest benefit I could have ever received from PJs program.
Sarah Cruickshank
12 years ago
What a wonderful post Peggy! I’m so glad that you found a way through the block and can see the way forward.
Sarah x
PeggyLusk
12 years ago
Thank you so much for connecting with me, Sarah… This was a very unexpected benefit of being a part of PJ’s program…
Bonnie Anderson
12 years ago
Thanks for sharing so openly. I’m happy for you. Putting yourself out there will result in hurt, but not as much as it results in love and fullfillment.
PeggyLusk
12 years ago
Thank you so much, Bonnie… This has been a truly amazing experience for me; allowing me to really see myself…